Dia

Today. It started out alright. Just. Stuff felt wrong. Felt against me. I made it through classes alright, and did some work. I was fine. I started killing people, in a game of course, which always makes everything better, right? Then boom. I just got hit. Shot. I didn't even know how to react. My body just freaked out. My mind running at a million miles an hour, without really thinking of anything. Like a blur. Why... It doesn't matter how you portray it or even how you see it. I will always see it as that moment in which I become not yours anymore. Out of sight, out of reach. Out of thought... Why does this seem to happen with everyone. I hate it. It's the worst thing imaginable, but yet it keeps coming back. I can't stand it. What must I do... I'm sorry. Just go. I promised.

Just please...when you go, as I lay here with this bullet through my chest, remember me when you're through with what you will.

I'm sorry

Love

Quickly

This post isn't going to be very long. I just popped this out to say a couple of things.

Firstly, I love Carly Stine, A lot, A LOT more than I ever imagined I could ever love anyone. She's the love of my life, and I can't wait for all the amazing things that will happen.

Secondly, you gotta remember to go through life without taking everyone or everything to seriously. People will always just end pissing you off when you take a small jest to seriously and people will troll you, and troll you hard. So just relax, bro.

Thirdly, and lastly, I realized how much eating right and sleeping right effects me, and I'm sure effects everyone. Lately I've noticed changes in thoughts, and behaviors, and moods depending on amount of sleep, and difference in food intake. So, just be cool about what you eat, and get enough sleep. 'Nuff said.

Peace

Sometimes

Sometimes, I don't even know why I right, or rather, type this blog. Sometimes, I wonder why I'm here. Sometimes, if just feels wrong. Sometimes, everything falls apart. Sometimes, everything seems perfect. Sometimes, right things happen. Sometimes, they don't. Sometimes, you make the right choices. Sometimes, you do the right things. Sometimes, you succeed. Sometimes, you feel accomplished. Sometimes, you feel important. Sometimes, you are happy. Sometimes, you win. But SOMETIMES, you fail and you fall. And on those days, in those darks hours, is when your real self rears its ugly head to show those unfortunate enough to know you what you really are, what you can become, what you are capable of, to frighten everyone away until you are completely and utterly alone. You are, but only human.

Sick

Hey. I'm sick. And I feel like crap. AND it's a friday, so I pretty much won't be doing anything tonight. WOO! I never seem to get enough sleep... and last night I must've done something weird to my neck cause it hurts a lot. Ugh. Just a bad day altogether so far and its only 9:35. Gross. I like it and hate it here. I got good internets, friends, and food, but no Carly. I got Ranch flavored sunflower seeds though, so that's a plus. I kinda wanna record something, but idk what to record and post. Like, it has to be cool, and funny, but I suck at thinking of things. Ohwellz. Also, I wanna play some different games, but idk which to play. Like, I've been playing a lot of wow lately, but like, its expensive and takes up a lot of time in college for stuff, so I was thinking of doing something like TFT, or MapleStory, or something else, god forbid Runescape. Christ. Lol. Well I gotta go to math. Tyyl. Leave a reply or something if you got any thoughts on anything. AuRevoir.

For Cody

Hey Cody. This post is a dedication to you. Sorry you got tonsillitis or whatever you got thats gross. Lol. Hope you get better. Love you. And you're humping Nick. So stop. Lol.